Though my heart is broken because Andrew is no longer in our presence, I still believe it is God's will to heal. He is a good God and I do not doubt that His thoughts and plans for us are good.
Though we did not get our heart's desire...100% recovery HERE ON EARTH, my faith in my God is not shaken.
Though sometimes my husband has to remind me to breathe and I force a smile on my face for the sake of others, down deep I have joy that Andrew is cancer free forever!
Though there are moments when my mind tricks me and I think that Andrew is just playing outside, God lovingly whispers to me Andrew is playing "upside."
Though my mother's heart longs to go to heaven NOW - this very moment, the same heart also understands my family still needs me here.
Though everywhere I look in our home, I ache when I see "Andrew" in the things he did, touched, wore...I am grateful that he was here in our family for 12 1/2 years. Now he is in our future!
Though I feel lost and undone, I trust God will gently lead me in His perfect timing and I plan to follow, knowing His path is the only One that leads to Life on the "upside."
"...though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me..."